I started a new treatment for my cancer a couple of weeks ago. (The old one stopped working). The new one is called Pluvicto, and I think it’s pretty cool. They made a molecule that attaches to a protein on the cancer cell, and it carries an atom of a radioisotope that exposes the cancer cell to radiation in a very targeted way. The molecules that don’t find cancer cells are just eliminated through the kidneys.
I don’t know if it’s going to work yet. I had to isolate for a couple days until I was less radioactive, but not too bad. The main side effects so far are fatigue, nausea, and worst of all, this song is stuck in my head:
I have been sad & down over what happened in my country at Bondi Beach on Sunday. My mind feels so drained. I was just at the new music thread, that cheered me up a bit.
What a sad and horrible week In Australia. I can’t seem to express myself about it though I really want to.
Here is our Christmas tree. My kids loved putting up the tree until they became teenagers. One year I set up the tree & left it bare with a sign on it from Santa, that kind of said, if they don’t decorate the tree next year they’ll get bugger all for Christmas. And you know, it worked. My daughter has her own home now, my son still lives with us. Since the note from Santa, without fail the tree is up and decorated.
I appreciate it. I’m looking at the reality of being homeless soon. I do not make enough at my current job to survive, not to mention the toll the job has taken on my mental state. Not an excuse, the absolute, unfortunate truth. I’m trying to find something else but have not been having any luck. Once I have no place to live I’m not sure what I’m going to do. The last time I was in this situation I found that the only homeless shelter is full and pretty much stays that way as it only holds 12 people. Even the rent at what little low income housing is available isn’t affordable.
I don’t know if I can say anything to make things better, but I’m going to try.
The larger towns/cities may have better facilities for unhoused people. I know Albuquerque has put both warming places and longer term residences in place. There’s bound to be places closer to you right now that also provide free places.
As far as death is concerned, I’ve honestly been thinking about that a lot lately, what with my terminal cancer and all. There may be a time when I have to call it quits because of pain and sickness, but the longer I live, the longer I want to. I realize that I’m luckier than most right now, but I haven’t always been that way. I stuck with it, and now you need to stick with it too. It will get better. Death would only make it worse, not only for you, but for us too.
I’m looking into low income and affordable housing. Someone from the Dept of Social Services is going to have someone contact me that can help. I haven’t heard from them yet. If I don’t hear anything by Wednesday ill follow up with my initial contact person there.
It started snowing here late yesterday morning and didn’t stop until sometime overnight. They were initially calling for something like 6-8”. We ended up with something more in the neighborhood of 19”. I can’t remember the last time I saw this much snow, particularly here on the coast and of North Carolina where it’s considered a relatively rare event.
The snow looks nice, though I’m not sure what it would be like when it’s so deep, I’ve never experienced living around it. I only saw snow once when I was a kid on a trip with my parents in Italy. Last week here in South Australia we had temperatures over 42C about 107F I think. Further north it got to 116F. Cooled down this week to around mid 80F. I do remember having such heat waves before though last year it didn’t get as high.
My Dad used to say he enjoyed the changing of the seasons. I don’t disagree but am a summer person. My least favorite season is winter. That said, they have their pros and cons. I can’t take being trapped in the house for too long. The plus of winter is what I’ve seen referred to as “wintering”: slowing down, getting more rest, etc. I’m also not a fan of the relentless heat, which we had plenty of last year. I know we can’t have it both ways but still, I prefer the warmer seasons. I couldn’t imagine living somewhere where current conditions are the norm the majority of the year.
Neither can I. I don’t mind staying in the shade outside when it’s hot, still the heat makes me lethargic. The air cons are inside if one wants it cooler. When I see someone running around in the hot sun with a bare back, it reminds me of the blisters I got from sunburn when I was a kid, an afternoon at a public swimming pool in 100F heat.
Jonathan, I don’t know what to say. I live in London if you fancy a trip sometime. I’ve never been to the Carolinas (or even the Southern States)- only California, San Fran LA, through Las Vegas ( we weren’t allowed to stop due to a gambling aversion on my partners part), Stovepipe Wells,Yosemite, Grand Canyon, Painted Desert back in 92 and the eastern seaboard- Rhode Island, Boston, New York, Long Island in 2000. That’s about it. We did get as far south as Flagstaff, Arizona in 1992. I have a spare bedroom in my 2 up 2 down (!) Wx though is not great- best in summer- freezing at the moment.Mind you, the flowers are starting to grow (snowdrops, primula, primroses, bluebells, grape hyacinths, daffodils- although they are all a bit early-they get earlier every year.) In summer we have the wonderful rose gardens and sunflowers etc
I came to disappear… Disappear playing on my CD player. Just back from a depot injection of aripiprazole. I hate it. It’s inhumane. I’m drunk on Mount Gay Rum now. Sorry, Jonathan, I neglected to mention that I’m a (part time) lunatic. I tried to go it alone and didn’t succeed. Result-the punishment of a depot injection in the right shoulder, I wouldn’t mind bu the left side is full of cancer. I WILL OVERCOME!!!. Just as Nelson did at the Battle of Copenhagen (had his right arm chopped off and thrown into the sea. Bravery? I 'm a wimp. Mount Gay Rum certainly helps and the Sun has appeared in a blue sky,. All is not wrong with the World.Saturn is orbiting nothing and breaking from home. My grand father had something to say about that. Oh yes! I have it on CD and I’ve woken Galileo. Time i spent some time alone- I’ll be fine- honest. It’s just a temporary phase. I WILL OVERCOME OH YES I WILL!!! Sorry folks, essentially I have bipolar disorder (since 18- so 50 years near enough- an old hand. Lots of ups and downs. However, having retired at 61 I decided to see if I could manage without psychiatric drugs. I was doing okish until 2 life events hit me- cat aged 12 died suddenly of a heart attack and I was diagnosed with breast cancer in my left breast. Life washed over me and off I went in my rocket into the stratosphere- cue landing on Jupiter Ward psychiatric unit. 2 and 1/2 months later I’m out but on depot injections. Sorry you didn’t want to know all this but I am at least still alive and kicking.Cat buried in garden, lumpectomy surgery over. The sky is still blue and the Sun is shining. Thank you for “In The Sun” Michael- a Godsend which has kept me going through this time.
